2 of Oct FAKE!

Finally I know..
Friends were jz a little part of my lifez..
I no need to care at all..
Because no one knows...
No one appreciates..
And I will b hurtled continuously..

I hope to leave..
Stresses all around..
Bad environment around..
I need a place which is really belongs to me..
But not calling me to suffer..
I need..
A new environment..
New friends..
Which is TRUE enough..=(

Cry yesterday..
Sis open the bathroom door when she heard tat Im crying..
Because spend my times on sleeping..
Stresses everything..
Bt they don even know its oso abt my friendship...
And she promises..
Will not on the pc...
And let me concentrate..
Even accompany until I finish studying at late night..
And makes herself flu..
I was touched..=)

''Mom, I really suffer..TT''
''Pass le den pass le, useless for u to refer back..Look forwards..
Rest is to continue the long long journey''
''I cant do it..''
''Its urs..Not others...
Do urself..Forget about it if they really hurtled u
You can cry bt don get urself crazy...''
''......''

''Mom, can I change skul next year..?''
''Why..?''
''I hope to change to asrama penuh..
Back three weeks once..
Teacher asks me but I not dare to ask u last time..''
''Why u wan to leave mom...?''

Almost cry with wad my mom answered me..
Its touched..
All advises tat she gave to me..
Its so important for me..
She was the one who know wat I think..
She was the one who understand me..
She was the one who knows everything that I hided bhind..
She was the one who understand that I oways endure n endure..
She was n she is..

Only family will b true to me..
Think abt my feeling..
Understand me more..
And also one who gives me protection..
I love them more.

I have to escape everything..
Even I have to give up my dreams..
Or just to avoid everything..
Dont ask me why..
You should know it...
I cannot live freely if I nvr avoid those irritated things..
I need to b happy..
Bt not b hurtled..

Finally I know..
How important is my family compare with my friends..
Who will just walk their way straightly...
And without thinking others..
NO TRUE...