T.T

I wish to escape,
But I couldn't..

I hate this,
And I even wish to suicide..
Because,
It seems everything will be fine..

People is successful,
But I always failure..

I hate this,
I hate this...

No mood to eat,
Even though I'm so hungry..

I really dislike it,
I hate it..

I hate this.
Everything..
Why?
WHY WHY?
Tears dropping down again D':

colourful lifez?
that's kind of ridiculous :'(

meow eh

Orps,
Sorry to someone.
I've done something which I didn't realize..
So sorry..
I'll try not to do it anymore..

I know she may be can't get it..
I'm too shy to say sorry to her...
Accidentally did something wrong..
I'm sorry..
Please forgive me. ):

no wayyy no way!

Love.

SHU away from me..
I'm not qualify yet,
I'm not in mood yet..

For me,
LOVE is something which can ends ur friendship..
When you confess to someone,
When you're not getting any answer..
That's all for you n him/her.
No more friendship..
And will become very embarrass facing with each others..
I rather keep everything in my heart.

No longer love for me,
I dono I dono.
I don wanna know..
Totally speechless.
No way and no way...
I'm not qualify yet.
And I'm too tall to be loved. =.=
Tats all..
Yea,


DO NOT FALL IN LOVE


Please,
To myself.

Physics!

BAH,
screw Physics!

I wish I don understand well on it..
But I'm able to answer those weird questios!
Arh!
Miracles please happen!!!
Yelling*
Stressing*
Insane with those stresses =.=
Ciaoz,
Study study and STUDY @@

EXAM!!!!! =(

No mood recently,
Don't make me angry as well.
:(

Piano's exam is earlier den wad I expected..
It's on 2nd of July..
Which one and half month from now...
I really haven't ready yet..
Few years ago,
It's on August..
I wonder why this year suddenly so early..
I thought it's only trial exam on July
And I thought I still can relax abit..
):
It isn't wad I expected..

Half month ++ for the trial exam..
I really haven't ready yet!
Mid term school exam also around the corner..
I wonder,
I can handle it??
After the school exam ady 4 of June..
Which much more approach the trial exam..
Hahaha,
I got no mood celebrate my birthday on 9 of June ady..
:'(

Went lesson yesterday,
Saw the announcement,
I'm the last candidate on that day..
I got some ''unlucky'' feeling on that....
Only me n teacher's student taking Grade 8 exam..
2 person only.
She took 2 years to practice..
And I only start on December last year..
Definitely,
She will be much more better den me..
If,
The examiner can only choose one of us to pass..
How?
I'm gonna fail??
I dowan T.T
RM470+ which is nearly RM500 to sit for this exam..
Parents ady spend so much money on me..
I can't fail..
I CAN'T FAIL.....

I had lost my passion on it..
I have no confident on it..
Totally depress..
Mistakes corrected ady..
Another mistake appears...

The coming bday,
I only hope tat..
I can pass my Grade 8 piano's exam..
That's my only wish..
Really )':

God,
Please,
I beg you with my tears..
I must pass it..
I can't escape at all...
Guide me to face it,
Guide me to pass it...
I really cannot FAIL!! :(

I don wish for any merit or distinction..
I only wish for the PASS..
Only the PASS,
And only the certificate ):
PASS!
Please my God :'(

friend?

A friend in need
Is a friend indeed..


When I've troubles,
No one knows..
When I've been insulted..
No one fights for me..
Okay..
May b I ady used to it..

Should not be tat good actually..
No one appreciates..
When they've been bullied..
I'm the one who help them who fights for them..
Sigh,
I'm so dissapointed
)':
Lastly,
I have to face everything
MYSELF.

Fine :(
I have to be used to it..
I have to,
I got no chance to say..
I dowan to.

Happy mother's day

Yea,
Mother's Day today.

As usual,
I did not wish anything to my mom.
I dono how to speak out,
I wana say.
But everytime ended up with,
FORGET AND SHY.
Sorry my mom. ):

As usual too,
Yesterday,
We ate dinner together..
Seems nothing special,
Cause every weekends we'll eat dinner together outside..
But this time,
We go a more high class restaurant..
Hhaa (:
Not VERY high class lar,
Just more expansive =.=
And we've to wait very very long..
Just 3 dishes den already RM60+..
Damn expansive =.=..
But dad smile today a lot (:
But also pissed off,
Because they're too slow..
And give us one dish..
And we wait almost half an hour for the following dishes..
BOOM DAO =.=
Satay oso very slow..
No choice,
Mother's Day..
(:

I did nothing for her today.
I even mafan her to fetch me to go Jusco and study with my fren..
I did nothing for her today.
I saw her buying skin product which cost RM165+ for herself..
And Im not able to paid so..
Today is Mother's Day,
Yet she bought things for herself..!
I'm so SORRY ):
Regret that I did not work last year..
Or else I will able to give her money to spent on her bday,
And even buy this product last time during promotion,
Im not able to buy for her..
May b last time I do,
But I'm selfish ):
Cause I wana keep the money for myself..
Buy books, Hang out with frens and so on..
Sorry, mom ):
I did nothing for her today.
Really,
I did nothing ):

Wana her to call me to do revision,
Wana her to took care of me everytime,
Wana her to worry about me everytime I hang out..
Wana her to wake up early to make vegetables+fruit juice for me..
Quite every morning,
And I dislike drinking it..
Did not appreciate her for waking up tat early..
And I scold her for doing useless things T.T
Wana her to fetch me when I slept late eventhough she was still sleeping..
I'm the youngest,
And oso the useless one..
She did say,
My born makes her die earlier..
Yet,
She did say too,
My born was one of her gladness too..
She did everything for me,
But I did not appreciate..
But still,
She loves me (:

I'm feeling guilty,
Last time I can understand my parent's feeling well..
I noe wat's they thinking..
Even though they didnt even tell me their feeling..
Nowadays,
I didn't..
I don even think wats their feeling..
Im right means Im right..
I will argue until Im right....
Sigh.
I'm in the stage of rebelling..
Thats the reason why,
I cant stand by their side,
And think of her feeling..
I did not accompany them,
Because my life was too hectic..
Tuition, hw fulfilled my free time ..
Will not be forgotten,
I do FB instead of accompanying them..
I'm sorry..

Wanna change,
But I'm not that determine..
It's too easy for me to don care about it..
It's too easy for me to say CINCAI for that..
It's too easy to not giving any damn on it..
I'm worst..
I did try to change..
But ended everything up with..
FAILURE..

Mummy,
I still love you..
And I wana find back..
The previous ME..
Who can know you well..
And everything also think of your feeling..
I dowan to be selfish..
I wana to be the best in your heart..
I wana you to thank the God,
I'm a really indeed good daughter..
I hope I can do so..

Mummy,
Sorry for everything I did to you..
I still love you,
And cant even live without you..
And oso papa..
Sorry,
And Happy Belated Mother's Day..
Now is ady 1.18am
10 of May.
I sleep late,
I wana blog!
About you (:
Mummy,
I love you

Awards day

Anugerah Cemerlang (:

The Awards day..

Woke up late
And rush like hell to school..
Change my costume,
Make up, tie hair bla bla~
And just to walk for about 3mins +
Maximum 5 mins lar I think..
To escort the VIP to the hall....
LAME.

But here,
Wana thanks so so so LOT to
Kansha!
Shes the one who borrows her costume to me..
Heeehee,
Of course,
Another two situpid buddies!
;D
MS Chang Kai Ru and Ee Meng Chyi..
They helped me a lot in making up,
Especially Kai Ru,
Since Meng Chyi is helping others too!
I was a noob on tat XD
Meng Chyi,
My dear!
Looked damn gorgeous today ;D
Heeeheeee..

Let's the pics tell you the story.
(:

With my gorgeous lady,
Meng Chyi Eeeeee ;D

With the pretty funny shortie,
Kai Ru Chang chang chang chang!
xD

Our girl head prefect ;D
Angie!

My sincerely WOONIE!
The cutest banana in my life ;P

S.H.E
Everyone noes us..
Because we're pretty?!
Aheeh,
Am just kidding ;P

Ling ling long long FLOWER GURLS!
All looked nice today!

Lee Wei Hong ;D
See,
I did not bend down!
XD

3 years same class with her,
Liyana,
We call her NANA~
But now,
We're not classmate anymore ):
><
I wan your susu! ;D

Again,
With my pretty dear ;P

STOP!
This was my look last year,
During National day..
Modeling competition..
With
Kai Ru Chang Chang chang chang

Same look,
Same size..
But seems different height T.T


And NOW,
MY SENIORS!
Those who did so WELL in SPM ;D

The mad one!
Straight As with 4/5 A+..
Our ex- penolong ketua pgws (:


The pretty one (:
8As if Im not mistaken..
Damn smart weh!

Will be missing u all like hell,
Remember to visit us anytime when you free!


Tat's all
;D

SMILE

People,
I'm SOO in LOVE with ''SMILE'' ,
New song I put in my blog..
The lyrics i sooO..
MEANINGFUL
Remember,
Smile! ;)

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,
If you Smile through your fear and sorrow,
Smile and maybe tomorrow
You'll see the sun come shining through- For you.

Light up your face with gladness,
Hide ev'ry trace of sadness,
Altho' a tear may be ever so near,
That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Ohhh Oooh  Yeah

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

Smile tho' your heart is aching,
Smile Even though it's breaking,
When there are clouds in the sky- You'll get by,

That's the time (thats the time) you must keep on trying,
Smile- What's the use of crying,
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just
You'll find that life is still worthwhile,
If you just smile.

alone (:

Was alone-ing in da house..
Not lonely,
But enjoyed (:
Playing piano alone..
No tv sounds ppl chit chat sound and so on..
I'm falling into MUSIC ♥

Mom just went hospital for blood transfusion..
Sigh,
After I was born..
She become weaker then last time ):
Lack of blood and oways look pale......
My born bought her luck?
Not really..
Sorry mom ):
I know,
She might be okay..
Pray for her too :D

Think a lot of things today,
I should RESTART..
From the very beginning...
(:

Being lonely,
Isn't a bad thing too.. (:

♥

What I saw is..
Their love towards each others..
It's so sweet..
Say sorry to each other,
Appreciate each other..
Believe to each other....
Now,
LOVE is really meaningful (:
Sweeeeeeeeeeeeet =D ♥

Jealousy is just a sign,
That you love that person (: