there's always the SOMETIMES

Sumtime all u can give is love
Sumtime all u have is not enuf

Sumtime life is like a dream
Sumtime dreams aren’t like what they seem

Sumtime laughter can heal your heart
Sumtime it’s laughter that breaks it apart

Sumtime the world goes faster than u can go
Sumtime even fast but is still too slow

Sumtime loneliness is what u need
Sumtime there’s a harvest after a seed

Sumtime u tink u understand
Sumtime u knw u really can’t

Sometimes I tot I understand,
But actually I don't :'')

God, my savior :)

and NOW.
I joined cf. :)
Christian fellowship.
Love it,
Because I learn something there.
Moreover,
That's better den staying home,
Inducing my dad to get angry of me.

Kid-like bible.
Thanks andrew for borrowing it to me :)
Start to learn everything,
And,
Pray while I met troubles.
And,
God know me well.
Than how you all do...

I know,
I might not a true friend.
I accept it all the time.
And don even admit that I am before..
I learned,
When people being direct to me,
I cannot be direct too.
Mummy u're right,
It only show ur childishness.
Seldom being that direct,
And now I hate enduring,
So that's my turn to be direct.
Yet,
What I get,
Isn't like what I did to them previously.
Friend,
U're right.
Everyone is different.

If everyone can think before they speak,
If everyone can look at themselves before commenting on others,
If everyone can stand at one's side and consider,
If everyone can learn to let go and endure,
Well,
How peaceful is it?
Everyone is different.
Even though u did everything that I listed on top,
You will never get anything like how you treated them
Everytime when something happens.
Don't you realize?
Humans getting so selfish nowadays.
Even when you meet new friends,
Same things occur. :)
This is all,
HUMANITY.
like what I said on my previous post,
you did.
I did.
Everyone did.
Don't you know?
If you always stand at other's side and consider.
You will be described as,
FOOL :)
Because,
You will never ever get anything.
You will just rugi :)
A LOT
:)

Nyway,
Just be urself.
I dowan to become so pathetic.
I know myself well.
God knows me.
Mummy loves me..
I feel,
That's enough.
If there's someone there willing to know me well,
He will appears.
God,
I wish he appears NOW
:(.

They describe it as LIFE.
Perhaps?
LIFE without these COMPLICATED characteristics,
Seems so boring hor?
No such things that TIME may helps.
:)
It happens all the time.
Just,
CHILL :)

. . .

Rainbow

Hate the whether nowadays.
Super hate :(
Damn freaking HOT
Staying home like approaching the stove.
Recces time,
Jaga pelajar.
See their face and giving instructions
UNDER THE SUPER BIG SUN.
Why can't it rains everyday?
Opening air-con doesn't feel better.
It's just more comfortable,
Think think..
Some people.
Their house got more den 5 air cons..
Global warming getting so serious D:
Quite worry..
Air con oso don feel like opening..
FAN super important for me now. :(

Rain please,
At night too..
Or may be evening :)
Nak tengok RAINBOW.
Had been a long time didn't see :(
Have no idea,
On the reason why I'm so in love with it.
:)

COUPLES.
Don appear in front of me.
lol,
Ah Lye still sit beside me..
hate you >,<
3 years till now.
It's okayy,
I'm just too tall XD

Oh ya,
Went one place tat my dad oftenly bring us yesterday..
AIHS,
How to say I oso don know..
Go there for bai bai (praying),
And have a small jamuan..
Aihs,
Dislike the place. :(

Daddy's friends and my relatives..
First thing they told my mom was,
EH,
YOUR DAUGHTER SO TALL HUH!
I count,
The first one.
And then,
WAH,
YOUR DAUGHTER SO TALL ALREADY HUH.
ALL LOOK LIKE DADDY HOR.
The second one,
SIGH.
Third one,
She's dato's wife.
Same,
She said I'm tall =.=
But,
PRETTY xD
( For those who's drinking or eating, I apologize :P )
Too bad,
I'm not..
And I don wish to take part in any competition or modeling =.=
What I need is just,
My height drop to 170.
Super enough!
I told mom,
today 3 people talk about my height.
My mom laughed.
So,
can feel how I feel liao?
:(

I wana wear high heels!
So nice sia T.T
Shopped with meng chyi.
Only can recommend her those high heels,
That I hope to wear :/
She tried few high heels,
I'm still taller den her.. :(
But got one..
I think got 8cm like that..
And,
She's FINALLY
same height with me.
GAH,
What a bad feel :/

Anyway,
My results..
Aihs,
Papers all given back liao only announce.
Seriously bad this time.
Seriously.
:)
Normal,
I did not put any effort :)

Ohya,
I failed my piano.
SHAMED * :')
Thanks God,
I did not cry :)
But,
seriously feeling guilty.

BAH,
Sorry,
No mood liao. ><
Today until here ba.. :)
Sorry guys.
I will brace up.
Give me sometimes :)

BODOH,
It doesn't mean anything.

Learn,
To smile,
When facing someone that you dislike.
And,
Love your enemies like what God say. :)

Smile,
with the questions asked,
that you don feel like answering.
:)



Chill,
:)

bull shit.

SOMEONE.
Hahas,
Nyway,
Being straight seems so freaking FUN.

If that is the matter to argue about,
Seems,
Many others people are coming to blame me..
For not calling them bla bla..
Nyway,
Good reason from you.
I accept :)

Things to conclude about,
Ya,
We treat you badly.
And found a simple conclusion for myself.
Ya,
it's true..
Memang true :)

Just,
Look at yourself..
Before you comment on others.
Blame and stop people from doing smth,
Yet,
you're doing it behind.

You did,
I did,
Everyone did.
That's humanity.

new song :D

Visit my blog oftenly
:)

There's lot of suprising nice songs..
Which I'm so in love with..
They're all my favourites :D

Now,
Another new song..
'' My secret Rainbow ''
From the movie '' Echoes of the rainbow''
A very meaningful movie,
Which I've recommended you all to watch it..

I love this song,
So nice :)
Share with you all :D

no more :(

Men are right.
People will only appreciate when they lost something.
People,
It's proven..

Am going to lost something,
Now only start to appreciate it..
I'm feeling repent and guilty..
Mummy,
Again I have to say sorry...

It might be the suffering days without my piano lesson..
I'm going to stop..
Few months after.
Reason,
NOT THAT AFFORDABLE..
I don feel like forcing my mom,
I don feel like wasting mom's money again..
I have spent her money,
Learning lesser things compare to others..
I didnt realize,
I should have change a better new teachers earlier..
Now my piano teacher is way better den previous one.
Teach me more den previous one..
And she guarantee that she will makes my skill become better
But,
Already late.
I am going to stop..

That's the cruelest thing for a piano player..
I can't improve my skill during the days I stop learning.
I dono what's the feel..
When people finish their lesson..
But I'm still a baru fail grade 8 exam de PIANO PLAYER..
That's a sarcasm..
Which hurt me for so long..

Daydreaming.
If I could sell my height.
Those operation fees is paid by someone who buy my height.
And,
The operation goes smoothly..
I'm still normal but just shorter abit..
I can get money and also become shorter..
How good isit?
HAHA,
Sorry for my childish thinking.
I noe that's impossible :/

I need someone to sponsor me..
RM300 per month.
Aihs,
Who willing to teach me with a cheaper price?
That's too hard to find a generous one.. =.=
If it's exist and someone really willing to sponsor me,
I reject too :)
Just don wanna spend mom's money too much liao..
Spending too much,
I feel more guilty.
Mummy,
Really sorry :(

Piano,
You make me enjoy.
And now,
You make me down..

But.
Why am I still so in love with you?
:(
I don understand. :(

:)

Calon.
Not gonna fight for this place..
Even though I've got chance for it..
Everything,
Just hand it to God.
God will arrange :)

Just,
I hope no quarrel begins between us..
I dowan to see people being that scary anymore..
And,
The job that teacher gave us..
PLEASE SHARE WITH YOUR PARTNER!
That's teacher's order to us..
If you do everything alone,
Will just suffer your ownself..
Don forget,
We're in one team,
But not the one who fight for the place..

It might be sad,
For getting nothing being prefect for so many years..
Friend,
Stay happy..
We still need you all..
To help us..
And you all are still,
my friends.
:)

If that's yours,
It will be yours...
Not need to fight for it..
And causes misunderstanding happens..
12+ selected prefects..
I hope we're still friend like last time,
And our friendship will not be affected..
Remember,
Prefects always work in a team!

:)

Just finish watching 岁月神偷 this movie..
I'm here to recommend you all to watch it..
A very meaningful movie..
And the director get the prize too..
Super touching,
Non-stop crying on the climax of this movie
That's sad.. :(

Feeling so guilty,
AGAIN.
When the dad in the movie scolded his son,
I was crying :'(
Because he's like scolding me too..
Parents are being frugality in order to foster me and my siblings..
Work very hard to bring us up..
And,
I'm also the most immature one..
Do not appreciate everything that I have now..
:'(
What my friends had,
I feel like having too.
It makes me demand for more..
MORE AND MORE..!
Making myself more unhappy,
And also to my mom who can't fulfill everything I want..
Mummy,
Sorry..

I used much of your money them others..
Really very very guilty.
Sigh,
Those expanses do not make me to work harder..
And also,
My results can be worst den others too..
:(
The best EXAMPLE!
My piano..
:'(
Seriously,
I wonder how to face my parents now..
:'(

What I aim for SPM,
is only few As enough.
I saw my fren,
Aiming for straight As bla bla~
I asked for the reason,
They told me,
Their parents work very hard to bring them up..
They can't make them dissapointed..
I look at them,
Was thinking..
What about me?
I used their money more than my friends'..
But I aim for that few,
And just relaxing all the days?
People,
I'm abashed of myself!
Extremely..!

The coming monthly exam,
It's okay..
I already expect my results will be very,
You know,
SCARY!
Compare to my mid-term test..
The worst excuse for myself,
Piano affects my mood..
May be last time,
It's my best excuse ever..

BUT NOW,
I have waken up..
No more this excuse
I can't make my parents dissapointed again..
I have to CHANGE!
:')
Last time,
That's my fault,
And I forget it..
Promised myself,
My nx time will be better :)
Thanks for machiiiies who support me,
Borrowing their ears to listen to my feelings this few days..

This time I forgive myself for not studying hard.
But I wont forget :)
That's a best lesson for me,
TAN XIAO JUN,
JUN XIAO TAN.
Stop being emo,
And change urself,
TO A BETTER YOU!

Smile for this post..
I know you guys have been a long time viewing my sad blog.
:)
Frankly,
I'm now okay..
Very fine,
Don worry about me..
:)

After this exam,
You may discriminate on my result..
But I will just ignore.
I will try my best,
To do well on my final exam..

God,
Guide me!
I need the feeling back,
Like last time having my mid-term exam.
Guys,
Pray for me !
The previous Ah Jun who loves Rainbow :D
Had returned back x)..
Change for a better ME !

Something for CQT,

As what I always say,
Time is the best medicine for everyone.
Chiok zai,
When comforting you,
I mean SCOLD :D
You make me brace up from being emo all the time.
I realize,
I'm so stupid for repenting for something passed
Now,
It's different.
:)
Believe on yourself..
We can do it :D

I've said,
As time flows,
The feeling faded away..
I did not go away,
But you the one who let me go..
:)

:)

Truth :)
I laugh,
Another different things that I heard last night.
And today,
Another.. ==
Yea, truth..
Which drive everyone crazy. :)
I really lazy care..
Truth den truth..
Whatever was happening,
I learned..
Just kinda non of my business..
I done my own thing,
That's only the main thing :)

Humanity which is hard to be seen through.
Stand at my side,
You'll be struggling..
Stand at your side,
I will angry too..

So,
My fault.
Sorry ..

The so call TRUTH.
Which guide me to think another way.
Ignore :)
And,
I will be fine..
Thanks for your advice :]

To a BITCH,
Look at your size only critic on me please..
You're now 17 years old,
Your behavior is more childish than me..
And also I can see through,
Whether you're well-educated or low-educated through this case.

Look at yourself before you blame on others!
Scold people with your own fault?
You don know how hilarious it is..
Look at the mirror yourself,
Thanks :)