13 of Oct You cant TT

Cant u just wait until one day after..?
Cant u just wait until tomorrow happens..?
Cant u just wait for me to save u both..?
Why cant u...?

''Until now I still bring the feeling ''jealous''
What are u trying to tell..?
Me again..?
Say me think too much..
Say I will make u feel guilty..
Now..? =(

Did I tell u if u can look further..
Everything will b fine..?
Everyday with a different face..
Sometimes smile cry angry or ignore others..
We really dono wat r u thinking about...
Its too hard to guess..

May be..
One who knows whats happening..
Understand wats my relationship with him..
And oso wats going on..
But..
For one who dono whats happening..
And study in other school..
Will straightly feel tat Im the third person...

Im confusing now..
PMR finished..
Equal to my life starts to bcome tougher...
I hate tat feelings le..
Dahlia class so scary...
Boon Chuan..
I really scare..
Ppl say me third person..
Separate u both..
I really scared of it...
U cnt proof it..
U cant...TT

13 of Oct PMR Finished

Huu..~
PMR had finished..xD
Yahoo..
Finally can rest myself..
But I cannot rest well..
I d expected something bad will happen...=(

Feeling unsafe in my heart..
First time ply pc and watch tv until no mood..
Something calling me to go study..
What should I study now..?
Just feeling so weird in my heart..
May b tats the feeling during every exams..
And during everyday b4 PMR finished =(

Thought will feel happy today..
But Im not at all..
Cant even happy...
Shout just to shout out my stresses..
And I only noe stresses had gone..
But..
Keep on worrying my result..
TT

BM..
Paper 1..
Quite easy compare with those exercises..
How much will I get..?
I dono..
Paper 2...
Bhgn C..
My content points gt wrong anot..
My elaboration gt problems anot..
I really afraid of it =(

BI..
Paper 1..
Easy things..
Paper 2..
Novel..
Dono gt write wrong points anot...

BC..
Paper 1..
No mood do bcuz it almost finished xD
Paper 2...
Feel tat I can get better marks BA..
But my calligraphy abit worst compare to my trial n other exams..
Two rows nice n pretty words..
Another two rows bcum so ugly..=(

SN..
Paper 1..
Dono gt mistakes anot..
Im oways careless with easy things..
Paper 2..
Noe to do..
But not sure the asnwers..

LOL..
TOO MANY LOR..
Anyway..
I noe I will tear during the result dayz..
Haiz haiz haiz =(

11 of Oct Gambateh..

Finally..
Can take a nap for two days..
Its tired..
LOL..

Went to Mooncake Festival celebration bhind my house today..
Hahax..
Meet my primary school's friends..
Qiu Bing Kah Meng n shorty guy xD
Almost cant see them at all..
Aiyaa..
Too short ma xD xD xD

Meet Wei Hong there..
Then we went for ''jungle trekking..''
Taking a lantern..
Walk around the Menjalara xD
Finally can celebrate it..=P
I jz planned to go back study after taking dinner there..
I cant control myself..
It had been so long nvr ply lantern n oso candle..xD
I miss my childhood time..
Plying candle in my grandfather's house..
With my cousins n siblings..
Its enjoyable..=D
But now..
Too bad...
Grandfather passed away..D=
May he rest in peace ba..~
Miss you =(

Woo..~
Just finish 250 + Sejarah questions..==
43 of them is KBKK questions..
About lessons bla bla bla..
Bored..
And its tiring..
KH 3 set of exercises..
180 Questions..
And revise wad Nordin teached and saved in pen drive..
LOL..
Today almost can reach 400 questions..
New record..xD
Hehe? =P

Late late night..
Just to wish those who are taking PMR..
Good Luck..
And try ur best..!!
Forget about Sc..BM..BI..
Look forwad for other subjects..
Pray for me and I will pray for u too..=)
Gambatek..!!
Hei xiu hei xiu..xD

8 of Oct Science lover..

PMR DAYZ

Lols..
Today English really nerd..
Novel shocked me..=(
Cry after it..
Frightened by my friends..
Whateva..
Sis say jz 10 marks..
No need to worry..
5 marks can get GUA?
Hopefully still can A...
But don really think so can A d..
BM n BI..
ALAMAK TT =(

Science today..
Its kinda shocked also..
Super bombastic easy in Paper 1..
Compare with Paper 2 lar..
Many ppl sad after handing in the paper 2..
Hopefully I can get A too..

Finally..
My Science book will b left by me..
Sad..
I love Science..
Kinda hope can everyday exam Science..
Mom also say tat Im mad =D
Hehex..=)

Mammi,
Loves u..><
Brace me up before SN paper 1..
And thanks Sarannia for borrowing phone to me..
=D..
Thanks God too..=]

Tomorrow Geo..
And PMR will b ended soon..
Haha..?
It ended..
But troubles began..
Haha?
Now really hope PMR everyday..
Science exam everyday!!!
Akahahaha...xD xD

3 of Oct I hate n I really hate

Just do everything u like..
You wan jealous me..
Hate me..
Even don trust me..
Please jz go ahead...

Need not to apologize..
And its enough..
No one even comfort you..??!
Ya..
Haha..
No one..
We leave u oways..
Leave u alone..
And I have to apologize den.

I hope to leave doesnt mean I will leave..
I wont leave my family..
And some of my friends..
And oso 3 Cempaka..
A joyful class tat I had ever b..

No need to change bcuz of me..
No need to make me happy..
You will jz hide on ur true..
And hate me inside ur heart..
Sorry..
I don't care d..
Just go ahead...

Really hope tats will no misunderstanding between us again..
And its same with Chyi..
Not only we both..
I gv u come my house tat day..
Just dowan misunderstanding happen again..
Although Im really dissapointed..
But I really nvr mention anything...
Cause I noe jealousy oways happen between u n me..
Pn Ong had told u rite..?
Trust him if u love him..
Trust me if u really like me..

Tats all..
You want do anything..
Go ahead..
I hv no idea anymore...
I nvr commit any crime..
My family trust me enough..
Not my fault..
I also will say sorry..
I apologize..
At least I will b the one who protect myself n trust myself..
Its d enough.

2 of Oct FAKE!

Finally I know..
Friends were jz a little part of my lifez..
I no need to care at all..
Because no one knows...
No one appreciates..
And I will b hurtled continuously..

I hope to leave..
Stresses all around..
Bad environment around..
I need a place which is really belongs to me..
But not calling me to suffer..
I need..
A new environment..
New friends..
Which is TRUE enough..=(

Cry yesterday..
Sis open the bathroom door when she heard tat Im crying..
Because spend my times on sleeping..
Stresses everything..
Bt they don even know its oso abt my friendship...
And she promises..
Will not on the pc...
And let me concentrate..
Even accompany until I finish studying at late night..
And makes herself flu..
I was touched..=)

''Mom, I really suffer..TT''
''Pass le den pass le, useless for u to refer back..Look forwards..
Rest is to continue the long long journey''
''I cant do it..''
''Its urs..Not others...
Do urself..Forget about it if they really hurtled u
You can cry bt don get urself crazy...''
''......''

''Mom, can I change skul next year..?''
''Why..?''
''I hope to change to asrama penuh..
Back three weeks once..
Teacher asks me but I not dare to ask u last time..''
''Why u wan to leave mom...?''

Almost cry with wad my mom answered me..
Its touched..
All advises tat she gave to me..
Its so important for me..
She was the one who know wat I think..
She was the one who understand me..
She was the one who knows everything that I hided bhind..
She was the one who understand that I oways endure n endure..
She was n she is..

Only family will b true to me..
Think abt my feeling..
Understand me more..
And also one who gives me protection..
I love them more.

I have to escape everything..
Even I have to give up my dreams..
Or just to avoid everything..
Dont ask me why..
You should know it...
I cannot live freely if I nvr avoid those irritated things..
I need to b happy..
Bt not b hurtled..

Finally I know..
How important is my family compare with my friends..
Who will just walk their way straightly...
And without thinking others..
NO TRUE...

30 of Sept Bcuz of u..I cnt b happy

Fashion show today..
Its raining since the early morning..
I ad NO MOOD to make up or wateva..

It started after recess..
And ad shortcut many...=(
Bt still gt the competition..
Luckily..

Get 3rd for this modeling..
First time win without any happiness..
Bcuz ad expected wat will happen soon..
Ya..
It really happened..
Except for smiling to take pic together..
Nothing exult me at all..

Can I change my attitude..?
I wish I can..
Turn to b one who can do anything without thinking others..
And have freedom..
Its really enjoyed.. TT

I love tis pic..=)
Shes nice n prettier..=)
I hope nth will ended our friendship..
Please understand me..
Thanks

27 of Sept Leave or stay?

Pmr coming..=)
Should I happy or sad..?
Happy bcuz finally it reach n I can enjoy after it..
Sad..
Have to leave 3 Cempaka 2009..
A special class ever..

3 Cempaka..
No stress..
No fight..
No racist..
No betray..
No revenge..
We live happily n enjoy our lifez..
A class which must b cherished..
A precious time with my classmates..
I love n I care..
All jie mui..
My bro..
Liang zai..
Kee Ian..
Chay shan..
Stupidoo Chun Fai..
Everything which I don wana to part with TT

Nx year..
What will b happen..?
Stresses pressing me..?
Friendship which will hurt me..?
Friendship which will compare with each other..
I HATE I HATE..!!
Anggerik..?
A good class bt a stressfull class..
Incredible...

I hope to change school..
Without those who I hate..
I can live better...
Without everything which I hate..
I will b better..
=(
Bt its really reluctant to part with all my precious frens..
Chyi..Kai ru..Man..Ying..Everlyn..Min li..Yee..Nooy..
Everyone..
My bro..Liang zai..Kee Ian =(
Haiz...=(

To leave or to stay..
Im jz hesitating...=(

25 of Sept BOOKS!

I hate you..
I hate books..
Gotta drag me to the hell..
My brain is full now..
TT
No mood sleep..
Dono wat is ''late''..
Im addicted with BOOKS n NOTES..
And tis is call CRAZY..=(

Nvm..
After PMR..
Everything will b thrown..
Cant wait for the days..
Woohoo..~
Im waiting..
For u..
WAKAU..~

22 of Sept Peaceful

Its raining cats and dogs..

The sky is crying..
Its tears turns to b sour..
And drop onto the land..
Roof of our house..
Everything..
Wind blow strongly..
Very cold..

My heart will be tat too..
I dono when will I wake up from cheating myself..
They can do it..
They will change..
Everything n everything...
Tats the only way to let the world peaceful..
I just need a peace..
A joyfulness place..
Everything ♥

Just a peaceful world..
I need it..♥♥